Recent Posts by Koby Gould

MORE TO LIFE: A Skeptic’s Journey from Depression to Spiritual Awakening, by BRITT SEVITT

I’ve just re-read Britt Sevitt’s book, ‘More to Life: A Skeptic’s Journey from Depression to Spiritual Awakening’ Contrary to what some people might think, the book is not just about depression, it is about so much more, it’s upbeat, inspiring and exciting, it is about the vision of an ‘awakened’ person, it’s highly thought-provoking, it is ...

20 YEARS SINCE MY COLLAPSE

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20 years ago today, 7 March 2001, a day that is etched in my memory, I came to the end of a journey, almost to the end of my life. I’d been in a steep decline into a pit of chronic clinical depression and, on that fateful day, I collapsed whilst crossing Gosforth (in Newcastle ...

BUCKET LIST

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“Bucket list I don’t want to die with these opportunities missed, So imagine the doc say’s “You’ve got just a year”, More I’d prefer but what would I do with that one? I want to sky dive, Feel really alive, Grab an open mic at a comedy store, Wait, that’s not all, there’s more, I want to learn to fly, Play the piano, well ...

FEEL ALIVE!

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"Want to feel alive? Live in the moment like you did when you were five? Feel excitement? Thrive? Get out of your home, Step out of your comfort zone, Put in you diary a new target, A standard you’ve never before met, Set yourself a new goal, Ask yourself, “What is my role?” The challenge needn’t be that big, You don’t have to scale an oil ...

CREATIVITY, ART, A WINDOW ON YOUR SOUL

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“Sometimes I feel like speaking, letting rip with some vociferous oratory, But oft times, no, some writing, some poetry, That’s what I want to create: Poetry needn’t have a proscribed shape, symmetry, It can flow, I can allow myself some artistic licence, I sense that that’s what I’m doing now, free verse, No need to practise, rehearse, It’s just consciousness streams, Well, it ...

2021

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I’ll start the new year with a pretty long run, About 28km, it won’t be fun, But I’ll kick it off as I mean to go on, Moving forward, glad that the year 2020 has now gone. I’ll keep pushing out of my comfort zone, How liberating and empowering that is, I have shown, It’s something I recommend to you all, Exercise, ...

DON’T IGNORE YOUR CALLING

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“It’s all about getting into sync your body, mind, heart and soul, It’s about authenticity and feeling whole, Allowing your values to be a bridge Between what you do and what you think, Allowing your values to be that link. For me, life coaching is my natural space, It puts a smile upon my face, Giving people a lift, When there might be ...

KEEP FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT…

Every day is a struggle with my demons, the little buggers trying 24/7 to bring me down, every day, those voices, "you can't do it!"- it can be deafening! But I fight harder than my demons, they give me their best shot, mine's better, sometimes I land a sucker punch, my voice is louder than theirs, I drown out their filth! My demons try ...

FORGOT TO TAKE MY PILLS!

"Feeling like the lights are on but no one's in, like I'm being punished for committing a sin, silence, nothing doing, brain not working, I'm not shirking, my brain really is not working, it's like my on/off switch is in the off position, I haven't got the mental wherewithal to make a decision, I just cannot think, can't do anything, I've lost ...

SELF-CARE, AS IMPORTANT AS THE MEDS!

"Adderall for my ADHD, and coffee, that's me, free of the shackles of fatigue and lethargy, I now feel awake, alive, but for Corona there'd be high-fives all around, yup, now feel sound as a pound, let's have a round of applause for adderall and caffeine, I mean, in the words of James Brown - and he knew, he was no clown, ...

THE FIRST DAY OF AUTUMN

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"Sitting outside on the porch, heat no longer blasting from a blow torch sun, I sense that it is the first day of Autumn, the Fall, the breeze, a call to step outside, the humidity less, I’m no longer a sweaty mess, the wind so refreshing and welcome, a delight, a mild day, a cool night, just to sit and do nothing, it’s ...

MIRACLES

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https://www.facebook.com/james.gould.754/videos/10160060286810828/ “Many people argue that there are no miracles today,  but I think that that’s an odd thing to say;  I don’t need to see someone split water,  I see miracles in my sons and daughter,  I think it’s a miracle that Yaf is my wife , I see a miracle in the fact that is my life.  What else is a miracle?  Let’s ...

ISRAEL, THE UAE and SAUDI ARABIA

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https://www.facebook.com/james.gould.754/videos/10160051134860828/ ‘El Al flight to Abu Dhabi in the UAE,quite something to see,flew through Saudi Arabian airspace,SAUDI, THE face of the Arab World. The moment was a watershed,considering that relations between Israel and these countries were dead.Saudi and the UAE have set a new agenda,have set the pace,and now there’s a race between other nations to improve ...

I’M BACK!

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"Yesterday’s mood was grey, the sun’s rays weren’t getting through, another run was called for, always is when the feeling is raw. It worked magically, radically, real change, across a range of my emotions, it broke the depression, stopped my regression in its tracks, got me off the rack. The lifting of the weight was tangible, palpable. Suddenly. I felt lighter, brighter, that metamorphosis is one of life’s great feelings, when I ...

“THE SOUL

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Yuval Noah Harari is an author in fashion - he incites the passions, love and fury; I’m reading his ‘21 Lessons for the 21st Century’: in it, he refers to two beliefs about the source of our desires and emotions, one which is biological, some will view it as heretical, the other, based on religion, some will treat it with derision and ridicule, as if the ...

WHAT’S THE POINT?

https://www.facebook.com/james.gould.754/videos/10160051134860828/ IMPORTANT, re the following poem, it does NOT reflect how I feel NOW! PLEASE DO NOT BE CONCERNED! I nearly didn't post it, so sensitive is the subject of suicide, and I know that it'll concern a lot of people but, please, do take note of the positive attitude in the second half of the poem. I ...

FRIENDS…

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"Acquaintances don’t live in your heart, your soul, they live in your brain, they’re off when it rains. Friendship, that’s made in your soul, friends make you feel whole. Friends give, they don’t lend, they’ll stand next to you till the end of time, friends get their own poem, they are celebrated in rhyme. I miss the guys – and the girls – back ...

END OF THE DAY…

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“Suddenly, tired, my mojo has expired, no more spark, I’m in the dark, I feel the end of this day, my mood is grey, I can’t think straight, my poetry ain’t great, there’s nothing there, I’ve lost my bit of flair. It’s time to call time on this day, nothing more to do nor say, except that tomorrow is another day, a new start for me and my ...

WHY POETRY?

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Day and night, I have to write, crunching words, playing with rhymes, thinking, in poetry land, always a notebook and pencil to hand. Scribbling, dribbling words on the paper, it’s like a caper, verses dancing, whilst I’m romancing about perfection. Writing is my art, I have a passion, but why this fashion, why poetry, why not the spoken word, why not oratory? My mind is a laboratory, always playing with ...

MY STORY: LIGHT, NOT DARKNESS

https://www.facebook.com/james.gould.754/videos/10160037490145828/ ‘A tweeter, Lauren Kay (@laurenikay) asked us to say, to tell her, what inspired us to tell our stories: I write my story, sometimes dark, but oft times, one of glory, to help people who suffer, who might be having a rougher time than me, - and I have been through tough times: I write about them in my rhymes. Mental illness is my story, depression, regression, darkness – ...

EXERCISE

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"So that pre-Shabbat run last night, did it happen? Did it…heck! Fatigue, mired in it, so, so tired. But this morning, twenty-to-five, awake, feeling alive, an early rise, out at five, just 8k, I felt more than OK! Well, parts of the run weren’t fun, but I had the resolve not to stop and walk - I had to talk to myself, keep going, no slowing down, I had to ...

POVERTY

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Footballers costing $220m,  there should be shame,  I mean, football, it’s only a game!  Who is to blame for global poverty?  Global corruption,  an eruption of greed which suffocates those in need,  this is not the human condition,  there needs to be global contrition!  Division, poverty, homelessness, hunger, despair,  the world is in dire need of repair!  But there’s too much power in the hands ...

SOME MORNINGS…

'Wake up in the morning, sun outside,but inside, it’s pouring,not fully awake, mentally still snoring,pain,nothing to gain from getting out of bed,legs of lead,weighed down,it’s written in the frown on my face,anxious about re-joining the human race. Can’t see,nothing’s clear,everything distant,nothing, except the darkness, is near,my speaking, monotone,feeling lonely, alone. It’s just one of those days,the sun’s ...

WRITER’S BLOCK

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Writer’s block, the clock shows me the passage of time,I’m without a rhyme to show for it,not a word on the paper,nothing an hour later. There’s nothing there,all I do is stare at the ceiling,hoping, in vain, for some healingin my brain,the creative cells,hoping for an awakening,the sound of bells chiming in my head,calling me to attentionwith the ...

“THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS”

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sing it: "Coffee and yoghurt and muesli and branflakes, apples, bananas, sultanas and fruit cakes, De Niro, Pacino, when Sinatra sings, these are a few of my favourite things. Music and writing and running and walking, poetry and singing and rhyming and talking, Elton and Elvis and Bennett and Sting, these are a few of my favourite things.” - Koby

ZIV’S OFF…

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"Ziv’s off the day after tomorrow, I’ve got no time to borrow, in the blink of an eye, the present’s in the past, it doesn’t last, it flies by far too fast. Time, we don’t own it, we can’t control it, we can’t slow it down, soon, Ziv will be at Uni, one minute in student garb, the next in his finery and academic ...

DOWNGRADE THE EGO AND THE SELF

"The attitude of gratitude is the place of true joy, the real McCoy,it’s a place of giving, not taking,of being authentic,not faking,it’s part of the human condition to push forward a mission to make the world a better place,which isn’t easy when you get caught up in the rat race. Anger, envy, ego, self,they are the antithesis, the ...

TIMES THEY ARE A CHANGIN’

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"I was thinking over Shabbos (Shabbat) and the need arosefor this piece of prose…  A Shabbos of mixed emotions, sadness and pride, I cried, it being my son's last Shabbos before going to England, to uni, to read law, knowing that, on Wednesday, he’ll be walking through the door,  leaving home, not that he should ever feel alone- this will always be ...

LAST CHANCE…

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"We’re not free any more,a virus and the law have reined us in,us, our friends, our kith and kin,no hugs, don’t want those bugs,no hello kissing, I’m missing the contact,I detest social distancing, the staying apart,which so many have perfected, turned into an art. Every time we go out, those masks,I do feel that it’s quite ...

DON’T BLINK!

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'Time flies so fast, in the blink of an eye, it’s way back in the past. Romi used to love me holding her hand, giving it a squeeze, now I cannot do as I please – no more squeeze. She used to love sitting on my knee, cuddling in, with her choochy grin, now, no more, that’s the law, and I’ve just got ...

LIVE AN AUTHENTIC LIFE

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"You don’t want a husband, you want a wife,no problem – it’s YOUR life,listen to your soul, to its voice,it is YOUR life, so it is YOUR choice. It’s YOUR life, not theirs,ignore their stares. If they aren’t brave enough to follow their dreams,don’t let them stifle yours,ignore the cultural and local mores,unlock and open YOUR chosen ...

WRITING INSPIRATION

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"Today, I’m tired, can’t write, try as I might,  there are no words in my head, my thought processes are dead, no imagination,  no creation taking shape, nothing on the poetry landscape. I never know, from one day to the next, if it’ll be there  or if I’ll just stare at a blank sheet of paper. One day, alive and kicking, the next, it’s gone missing, I’m on ...

TRUE JOY

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The hunt for the holy grail,it's on the trail which leads to pure joy,which you find not by looking out but looking in,deep below your skin. Pleasure is a transient treasure,it’s in sex, drugs and rock ‘n’ roll,it’s not in your soul,it’s in taking, not giving,it’s a fleeting high,to which you’re always saying goodbye. Happiness is taking ...

TRUE JOY

"The hunt for the holy grail,it's on the trail which leads to pure joy,which you find not by looking out but looking in,deep below your skin. Pleasure is a transient treasure,it’s in sex, drugs and rock ‘n’ roll,it’s not in your soul,it’s in taking, not giving,it’s a fleeting high,to which you’re always saying goodbye. Happiness is taking ...

DEPRESSION: AN INVISIBLE, OFTEN FATAL, ILLNESS…

'He’s the life and soul of the party,  the most socially-at-ease,  always the first to please,  the joker, the jester, the clown,  the man about town,  the one who is always up for a laugh,  the most popular member of staff, the mostly talkative on the team, his smile a blinding beam…  NEVER TAKE THAT SMILE AT FACE VALUE, it’s all an act,  he’s wearing a ...

ADHD, A MISSED DIAGNOSIS

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https://www.facebook.com/james.gould.754/videos/10160023163590828/ "Some quotations really resonate, and this one, by James Michener, is great: 'I love writing.  I love the swirl and swing of words as they tangle with human emotions.' Now, THAT is a notion,  replete with emotion,  which really strikes  a chord with me. Thanks to depression and ADHD, which numbed my mind, made me 'blind', as a kid at school, I just couldn’t see it: to get my English ...

NOT EMPTY NEST SYNDROME…YET!

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"Further to my poem this morning,which doubtless had most of you yawning, the poem about Ziv and Romi flying the nest(some, it seems, thought the poem one of my best),I have been advised that my condition of sadness,to add to my condition of madness,is ‘Empty Nest Syndrome’,the children leaving home and mum and dad living alone. Well, ...

FLYING THE NEST…

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"Lots of emotion,  all this commotion, physical and mental, forgive me while I get sentimental. 5, 4, 3…soon there’ll just be Yaf and me; the children are flying the nest, no, really, I do not jest. Ziv’s off to uni in England to study law, that makes my heart so sore, Romi’s off to mechina*, soon, it’ll have been weeks since I’ll have seen ...

FOLLOW YOUR SOUL

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'Take what action  to secure enduring satisfaction, to achieve the holy grail, what does it entail? The holy grail is true joy, it’s peace of mind, how do we find that peace of mind? Don’t look outward, look in, look deep below your skin, focus on your soul,  ask yourself, “What is my role?” Ask yourself, “Is my body, mind, heart and soul in sync?” because between where you are ...

A RUN WILL MAKE THE DIFFERENCE…

"Today, I can’t get my creative juices to flow,I don’t know what to write,the lights are on but no one’s home,I’ve got the imagination of a rock or a stone. Maybe today, a little depression,which has brought about some minor regression,but I’ll be ok later,after I’ve been out for a run,yeah, I know how to have ...

A DAY TO PROFESS LOVE AND GRATITUDE

"Tu B’Av, Jewish Valentine’s Day,   on which we send our thanks above   for the blessings that have given us the ones we love.   But, in addition, today, it is my mission   (as a poet, and didn’t you just know it    - I do feel queasy, that line was pretty cheesy)   to give thanks to Yaf, my wife,   on our anniversary,    the Hebrew date,   so ...

DEPRESSION, NO SHAME, IT’S AN ILLNESS

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"Depression is often invisible, to deny that it’s an illness, that is risible.  Sufferers, listen, there’s no reason to feel shame,  I don’t want to see nor hear the word ‘blame’. Many years ago, depression almost killed me,  I was as good as dead, the doctors said they didn’t know if I’d pull through,  if I’d make it.  I certainly didn’t fake it, my illness ...

THE CORONA ERA

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"What a time we live in, got us all in a right old spin, can’t get together, we’re at the end of our social tether, got to keep apart, social distancing, it’s become a work of art. Can’t shake hands or kiss, got to give that a miss, what about a hug? Nah, don’t want to risk catching the bug. So, for now, got ...

GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE

Your comfort zone,  it numbs your soul, it’s a dark place, as black as coal. If you want to grow,  you must know the importance of  leaving that zone, so do it, don’t moan. Challenge yourself, no magic, no hocus pocus, you must focus on the challenge, persevere, you can get from there to here. No option to quit, never give up, grit your teeth, you can win the cup, but keep raising the bar because you’re ...

THE HOLY GRAIL

"The holy grail, an escape from going stale, peace of mind, you will find, if your body, mind, soul and heart are in sync, a work of art. With the right state of mind, you will find that peace of mind. If you feel gratitude and contentment, not resentment, if you stop chasing, racing, you will find that peace of mind. Don't consign yourself ...

SUNDAYS CAN BE TOUGH DAYS

"Some days, just getting up in the morning  can be an achievement,  It can be difficult when you feel like you’ve suffered a bereavement, Take it easy, don’t frown, Don’t let depression get you down. It’s Sunday, it needn’t be a fun day, Life’s a rollercoaster, lots of ups and downs, Not every day is for jesters and clowns. Cut yourself some slack Don’t look ...

JUST 24 HOURS LEFT

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What to do if just 24 hours left, Not to leave loved ones forlorn and bereft, I don’t want to die with things unsaid, Lying on, and leaving from, my death bed. Gratitude to express, Love to profess, No, there’s no emergency, But I have a sense of urgency. I must express that gratitude -  authentic, not a platitude, I must do it today, not ...

REGRETS? NO!

"Went left, not right,What a plight!Went right, not left, I was bereft!I left, didn't stay,Why didn't I obey?I stayed, didn't leave,Why didn't I believe?But the road I travelled to get me here,To my children and my darling dear,It was the only road,Truth be told.So, mistakes, errors: regrets?Should I be miffed?No, they were blessings,They were a gift." ...

DARKNESS AND LIGHT: TOMORROW’S ANOTHER DAY…

Yesterday, I saw the sun, Today, I am numb. Last night, I saw the moon, it was a boon, Today, clearly came too soon. Yesterday connected, Today not. Yesterday, up for living, Today, not a lot. Yesterday, an appetite, Today, I'm not right. Yesterday, the world, a sense of awe, Today, it's all rather a bore. The stillness, it's an illness, Soon, I'll take my pills to attack ...

BEHIND THE MASK: GETTING TO KNOW MYSELF…

I was having a private message 'chat' with my new, unofficial writing mentor yesterday and, re one of the exchanges, she said, "love this! this is a beautiful blog post, as is": I guess that she meant that what I had just said would make a great blog - so here it is... "Depression, mental illness/health/wellness, anxiety ...

THE BLACK DOG’S REALLY SUNK HIS TEETH INTO ME THIS MORNING!

Wow! The chill winds of depression are cutting right through me this morning (I've taken my antidepressants but they may as well be sugar pills!). I'll be ok when I've taken my ADHD med (Adderall)*. That'll crank my engine. But, for now, the lights are on but no one's in... My depression demon has really thumped ...

I AM NOW TAKING ADDERALL (like Ritalin): AM I RIGHT, HAVE I BEEN SUFFERING FROM AND WITH UNDIAGNOSED ADHD ALL MY LIFE?

I’ve been prescribed Adderall for ADHD. I'm 54. I take an antidepressant (Citalopram), anti-psychotic (Aripiprazole), together for clinical depression and OCD, and a beta blocker (Metoprolol) for panic attacks. I felt really flat this morning. Then I took my meds (taking Aripiprazole tonight). Buzzing, a new type of buzz! Not, IMHO, related to having also taken ...

TRAUMA: IF WE DON’T PROCESS IT, IT WILL WEIGH US DOWN AND HOLD US BACK…

My memoirs, I wrote about trauma yesterday.  My friend, my good friend, my mentor, motivator, Britt Sevitt (she doesn’t know that she is my mentor/motivator but she is, she just is), she has been talking to me about trauma, trauma in childhood. Until we got into this area, I thought that childhood trauma meant stuff like ...

“FAKE IT ‘TIL YOU MAKE IT”, a play by BRYONY KIMMINGS and TIM GRAYBURN:

I’ve just read a superb play which painfully resonates with me. I found it, in parts, hard to read! Bryony Kimmings and Tim Grayburn’s “Fake It ‘Til You Make It” is, in essense, a play about depression, what it is, what it is like to live with, from the view/standpoint of the sufferer, Tim, and his ...

‘YOU MUST BELIEVE IN SPRING’: A WORK OF SUBLIME, EXQUISITE PERFECTION.

For me, what we have here, music composed by the colossus, Michael Legrand, lyrics by the legends, Alan and Marilyn Bergman (French lyrics by Jacques Demy), on piano, the enigmatic Evans, Bill Evans, that mercurial maestro, and the voracious vocalist, the icon, Tony Bennett, we have in this team effort which produced this recording of ...

‘OUTRUNNING THE DEMONS – lives transformed through running’, by PHIL HEWITT: A ‘MUST-READ’ BOOK!

Phil Hewitt’s book, ‘OUTRUNNING THE DEMONS: lives transformed through running’, I have never connected with a book quite like I have done with this one, never has a book so resonated with me, never have I been so energised in the reading of a book, never has “I just couldn’t put the book down” so ...

A LIFE-CHANGING BOOK: PHIL HEWITT’S ‘OUTRUNNING THE DEMONS – lives transformed through running’

I often read a book and say afterwards that it's a "life-changing book" but I'm not sure that any has actually proved to be that - life-affecting, perhaps, but "life-changing", hmmmm....I don't know. However, a book which I'm reading now, and haven't finished yet, I already know that it'll be, for me, life-changing. In my ...

54th BIRTHDAY, I’LL CELEBRATE IT THIS YEAR: I’M ALIVE!

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Tues 16 June, lots happening... a) my 54th birthday: I'll celebrate it this year, I'll celebrate being ALIVE! b) I'm running my first ultra-marathon, 54km, with my elder son, also his first ultra; c) Marathon Monster (that's me and my son), we're meeting with Israel Centre on Addiction's (ICA) PR team, Unik*; d) I'm going to stop the ...

WHY I’M EXCITED ABOUT NEXT WEEK’S ULTRAMARATHON DESPITE THE FACT THAT I KNOW IT’S GOING TO HURT…

NEXT WEEK, at 12.01am on 16 June 2020, I'll start, with my son, my/our first ultra-marathon. On that day, I turn 54 years old. We're running 54km (33.75 miles) up and down 730m-long Herzl Street, Ra'anana. It's part of a training programme geared towards a 100-mile (160km) run, all on Herzl Street (222 times up ...

‘FIVE FAMILIES: THE RISE, DECLINE, and RESURGENCE of AMERICA’S MOST POWERFUL MAFIA EMPIRES’, by SELWYN RAAB

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A brilliant ‘Mafia’/‘Cosa Nostra’/‘Mob’ book by Selwyn Raab, absolutely brilliant, a journey from Sicily in the early 20th century, through Joe ‘The Boss’ Masseria, Salvatore Maranzano, the Castellammarese War and Charles ‘Lucky Luciano’, through the precursor to, and formation of, New York’s big five Borgatas/Mafia ‘Families’, the Bonnano, Colombo, Gambino, Genovese and Lucchese ‘Families’, their ...

‘MONSTER-MARATHON MENTAL MILLION CHALLENGE’

‘MONSTER-MARATHON MENTAL MILLION CHALLENGE’  As many of you will know (publicity-shy I am not and, in this matter, it’s just as well!), Ziv and I have set ourselves a challenge: NAME OF CHALLENGE: ‘MONSTER-MARATHON MENTAL MILLION CHALLENGE’  WHAT IS THE CHALLENGE? THE “HERZL HUNDRED”: To run 100 miles (160km) on Herzl Street, Ra’anana* (less than half a mile long) in under ...

ADDICTION: IT’S AN ILLNESS! “THERE, BUT FOR THE GRACE OF G-D, GO I…”

2006, Hank Jones introducing: “…Next is a young pianist…you’re going to hear a lot more from (him) in the coming years and his name is Mr. Austin Peralta…" Austin was just 15 years old at the time. A star, becoming a legend in his own time… https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=__7k0Bb0jSg Fast forward to 2012, Austin, a man who had a golden future ...

OUR CHILDREN’S MENTAL HEALTH IS BEING IGNORED! SITUATION: CRITICAL!

It’s 8am, I walk downstairs, I see my daughter sitting, motionless, silent, expressionless…. She’s got a bagrut exam this morning (she’s 18, the bagrut is the Israeli equivalent of an English A-Level): “What the exam today?” She thinks for a second, translates the Hebrew into English for me: “Jewish philosophy”, she mumbles, her face still expressionless.  “Jewish philosophy”, I ...

LIFE’S A SHOE

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Divine is a foot.  Her life’s a shoe.  Would that Divine’s life was an open-toed shoe, a sandal, a flip-flop, airy, light, a good fit, or a great pair of trainers, again, the right fit, comfortable, if a closed shoe, lots of wiggle room for her toes….but it’s not so; you see, Divine is a right foot, the ...

OCD: IT’S MORE THAN A LITTLE OTT CLEANING AND CHECKING…

I have to stop this, calorie-counting and protein-counting. Even chewing gum and the splash of milk in my coffee, they’re in the count! I have ‘OCD‘ (‘Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - though my youngest, when approx 12 years old, he thought it stood for ‘Obsessive Cleaning Disturbance’: children see things, they are very aware, conscious of, what’s ...

34C/94F THIS MORNING: WHAT DROVE ME TO RUN IN THIS HEAT? WHAT DID I GET OUT OF THE RUN?

It was a hard run this morning, much harder than it should have been! It wasn't a long run, only 10km, but it was hot! My alarm was set for 5.10am. I should have been out the door by 5.30am, on the street for the run. Unusual for me but I slept through the alarm.  Showered and dressed ...

QUESTION. PSYCHOLOGIST TO ME: “DO YOU EVER EXPERIENCE PEACE?”

My psychologist asked me a question yesterday (2nd session), asked me if I ever experience "peace" - I had to think about that one! After a few moments' thought, I told her that I find it in music, in listening to music. She asked me if I find/experience it in/during my running. Again, a few moments' ...

THE SOURCES OF DEPRESSION

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A few days ago, I 'penned' a blog entitled: "FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST…AND, IN THE WORDS OF ‘THE GODFATHER OF SOUL’, JAMES BROWN, “I FEEL GOOD”". I've been thinking about it, about that first session with the psychologist, thinking about mental illness, thinking about why I might have the conditions, clinical depression, anxiety, panic attacks, OCD, ...

FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST…AND, IN THE WORDS OF ‘THE GODFATHER OF SOUL’, JAMES BROWN, “I FEEL GOOD”

I've had to get this down on paper, or laptop screen, whilst the adrenalin is still flowing... I've just seen a psychologist after decades of psychiatric treatment without, to all intents and purposes, ever really seeing a psychologist. I take meds for my clinical depression, anxiety, panic attacks and OCD. If I stop my meds, I'm a ...

‘STAND-ALONE’ EATING DISORDER OR ‘JUST’ A SYMPTOM OF OCD and/or OBSESSIVE PERSONALITY?

I’m watching, and loving, ‘The Sopranos’.     One of my ‘issues’ in life is calorie counting and keeping tabs on my daily protein intake.     I keep myself on a tight food rein and what they seem to do most in ‘The Sopranos’, more than killing people and going behind their wives’ backs, is eat - eat, eat, eat, ...

DEPRESSION: THE LIGHTS ARE ON BUT NO ONE’S HOME

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Numb, disconnected, I'm on the outside of the world, looking in, I feel like I don't belong, like I'm out of place. I'm jaded, drained, exhausted, so, so tired, frustrated, angry, shame of who and what I am (though not ashamed of my depression!), hatred of myself, disoriented, intolerant, impatient, irrational, illogical, hopeless, hopelessness, pointless, ...

THOUGHTS ON A BAD DAY… STAYING STRONG, RESOLUTE, RATIONAL, FIGHTING THE BLACK DOG OF DEPRESSION

A tweet I published yesterday (@kobysfightback):     1/8 #depression #mentalillness# mentalhealth Blo*dy hell! I am being mauled by the #BlackDog today. I am on the floor! Last few days ain't been great but, today, splat! You couldn't peel me off the floor! Ran y/day, #running tomorrow, NEED TO! I'm drained, exhausted, numb...     2/8 #depression #mentalillness #mentalhealth #panicattacks  Defo time to ...

‘THE IRISHMAN’ (2019)

I watched Martin Scorsese’s ‘The Irishman’ last night: in a word, ‘superb’. As soon as it finished, I posted a short tweet (@kobysstars), said that, for me, it’s up there with ‘Goodfellas’, I “wow”’d the acting and the soundtrack, lauded Scorsese as a genius and left it there… BUT I woke up this morning and ...

CORONA VIRUS: IS IT APPROPRIATE FOR PRESIDENT TRUMP TO REFER TO IT PUBLICLY AS “THE CHINESE VIRUS”?

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Earlier this evening, I tweeted (@kobysnews) criticism of President Trump's referring to the Corona virus as the "Chinese virus" but, having read, with an open mind, a lot of criticism of my position, I changed my mind/position and I'm ok with the reference, especially as China tried to pin the blame on the US military. ...

AM I SUFFERING FROM AN EATING DISORDER?

Perhaps a little obsessive on the calorie counting, protein counting front. Everything I do during the day, working, resting, playing, it’s all under an umbrella of calorie counting, it’s all part of my 24/7 food, eating, nutrition and running mindset.  Everything outside of food, eating, nutrition, running is subservient, in terms of importance and priority, to ...

ONE LESSON TO TAKE FROM CAROLINE FLACK’S DEATH

In light of Caroline Flack’s tragic passing, I apologised, this morning, to a tv journo for directing at her, last week, on Twitter, a critical comment which was OTT. Social media platforms, especially Twitter, make it TOO easy for us to communicate with people whom, before social media, we couldn't get near.   Undoubtedly, many of us ...

THE DUKE AND DUCHESS OF SUSSEX CROSSING THE POND: ANOTHER HEADACHE FOR THE QUEEN

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The marriage of Prince Harry and Meghan Markle, the Duke and Duchess of Sussex, has, very unfortunately, become a bit of a soap-opera of late and, the Royalist that I am, it upsets me – it’s all so unseemly.     I appreciate that there are some big news stories out there and that some of them, Iran/Iraq ...

LOVE IS…

Can we be completely explained by science?   Are we just oxygen, calcium, carbon, sulphur, magnesium et al?   Are we inherently ‘programmed’ to behave in certain ways, do we react to physical and mental stimuli as a result of electrical impulses?   Do we think and act independently or is it all just synapses, impulses, biological algorithms?   Do we make decisions ...

QUITTING MUST NOT BE AN OPTION

This morning, I went out for one of my runs. I felt heavy-legged, sluggish, when I got out of bed at 5.45am. It’s marathon training season, I ran 28km last Friday and 12km on Monday. Today, 8km with 14km coming up on Friday.     An aside, the back story: I’m 53 years old and started running, from ...

ISRAEL ELECTIONS – AGAIN! DON’T FALL FOR NETANYAHU’S SCARE TACTICS! DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH! READ FROM OBJECTIVE SOURCES!

Those of you out there who are in two minds as to whether to vote for Likud/Bibi or Blue&White:     DON'T buy the scare tactics, lies, deceit etc etc etc put out by Bibi that Blue&White are leftists who will surrender the country. That is an out and out lie!     Blue&White is NOT a left wing coalition of ...

‘PROOF of HEAVEN: A Neurosurgeon’s Journey into the Afterlife’, by EBEN ALEXANDER, M.D.

First of all, I have no doubt that a lot of people, people who would enjoy this book, who would get a lot out of it, that they will steer clear, will be repelled by the title:     DON'T BE! You do not need to be religious, to believe in a theistic God, in any God or ...

BBC’s ‘PANORAMA’: THE END FOR CORBYN?

That Panorama programme goes on air on Wednesday 10 July. It’s Monday 8th today and Jeremy Corbyn and the horrors in his inner sanctum are running around in panic, headless chickens all!   Bottom line, if they had nothing to hide, if they thought that the whole thing was going to be a work of fiction, they would ...

A ‘MUST READ’ BOOK! “JOG ON: How Running Saved My Life”, by BELLA MACKIE.

I’ve been reading a lot of books which resonate with me these days: Bella Mackie’s terrific, inspiring "JOG ON – How Running Saved My Life” is one of them. In fact, Bella’s book, her story, mirrors my story in many ways. I so ‘get’ Bella, I can see so much of myself in her struggles ...

MY OBSESSION WITH EATING: AM I IN CONTROL OR AM I BEING CONTROLLED?

Four years ago, I started a major lifestyle change, dietary, exercise (running), no alcohol, big weight-loss, mental health focus.     Before I continue, I should point out that I suffer from clinical depression, I take SSRI antidepressants and I take betablockers to keep panic attacks at bay. I should also point out that I have OCD (psychiatrist ...

BIBI WINS AGAIN. DON’T JUST GRUMBLE, SIT BACK AND WAIT FOR THE NEXT ELECTION…

So many of us, in light of Israel’s election result, are on a scale between ‘a bit down’ and ‘utterly despondent’, so many of us feel that an opportunity for change, an opportunity to ‘clean the sewer’, an opportunity to sweep away political corruption, legal and moral, an opportunity to introduce fairness, equality, kindness, empathy, ...

LIFE’S MOST BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCE

The second most beautiful experience we can have in life is witnessing compassion, empathy, love and kindness, witnessing the manifestation of the very best of humanity:     https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5umUPJ2G4Y     THE most beautiful experience we can enjoy in life is acting - OURSELVES – with compassion, empathy, love and kindness and witnessing the reaction from those towards whom the humanity ...

THE BRITISH HONOURS SYSTEM SHOULD BE MANAGED FAIRLY OR BE SCRAPPED!

I’m fuming so I had to put ‘pen to paper’.     An MBE for this incredible lady shines a shameful light on the mockery that is today's Honours System. David Cameron's hairdresser was 'awarded' an MBE for 'services to hairdressing'! Shami Chakrabarti was 'awarded' a Peerage (by Jeremy Corbyn of all people!!) for, well, nothing, Lynton Crosby ...

FROM PESCATARIAN TO VEGETARIAN… TO VEGAN?

This pescatarian is now a vegetarian. Each unto their own - freedom of choice!! non-judgemental!! - but I can no longer reconcile my animal welfare considerations which stopped me eating meat 20 ish years ago, chicken 19 ish years ago, with my continuing to eat fish (I’m Jewish so swine and shellfish are out anyway). ...

“Mum’s Little Book of BIG RULES (in no particular order): For David, Reuben & Ethan and anyone else who might find inspiration in these pages (with some repetition for emphasis :-)”, by Deborah Judah

I have just read this wonderful ‘Little Book of Big Rules’: The beautiful Deborah Judah, of blessed memory, passed away a year ago at the tragically young age of 52. That pesky cancer stole her away from her family, loved ones, friends, colleagues, from all those whose lives she touched in her short life and all ...

CLINICAL DEPRESSION: IT’S AN ILLNESS, IGNORANCE STILL ABOUNDS AND THE CONSEQUENCES OF THAT IGNORANCE CAN BE FATAL

A conversation I had yesterday with a pal of mine, a guy in his early 30's, from India, a guy with very little money who grew up in poverty, in India (poverty by Indian standards!), it shocked me (though I'm not sure why) but, more than that, it terrified me.     My pal (protecting confidentiality, I'll call ...

LOVE, EMPATHY, GOODNESS, KINDNESS, COMPASSION…ARE OUR FEELINGS AND ACTIONS REALLY JUST A SET OF COLD, BIOLOGICAL IMPULSES?

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I'm having one of those deep, introspective days....     https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbHKY363eT4     The Holocaust, the accounts, the stories, the evil, the suffering, it screams at me "G-d, a theistic G-d, to be specific, cannot possibly exist" and, if He does, he ain't for me, not against this backdrop (see *'Epicurean Paradox' below) but stories such as these, stories of mind ...

‘SINATRA: BEHIND THE LEGEND’, by J. Randy Taraborrelli

Back in 2015/6, I read a magnificent biography of my favourite, my No.1, Frank Sinatra, a two-part colossus of a work by James Kaplan: VOLUME 1:  ‘FRANK: THE VOICE’ (in the UK, ‘FRANK: THE MAKING OF A LEGEND’) VOLUME 2: ‘SINATRA: THE CHAIRMAN’. When I finished reading the biography, I was convinced that I had read the definite Sinatra biography. I, some ...

MY EXPERIENCE OF THE DARKNESS THAT IS DEPRESSION

An excerpt from a message I sent someone yesterday, a message in which I tried to convey some of the dynamics of a depression ‘episode’:     "...mental illness, depression et al, it is so destructive and, tragically, still so misunderstood. One of the big problems with depression is that although it manifests in many ways, although the ...

I AM WHAT I AM

During a recent conversation about the creative advantages of suffering from ADHD, I made, in relation to my own condition, clinical depression, the following comment:     “I'm sure that my mental illness, clinical depression, gives me an insight, an x-ray vision, which is more pronounced, deeper, when I'm going through an 'episode' (except when it's really deep ...

THERESA MAY’S BREXIT: AN EXERCISE IN AUTOCRACY

Dominic Lawson in @sundaytimes (16 December 2018):     “the one thing that all the campaigners for the second referendum have in common is they want to reverse the outcome of the first one. They are interested only in that, not in the democratic process.”     That has infuriated me. Why does he not believe that many who want a ...

‘FACTFULNESS: TEN REASONS WE’RE WRONG ABOUT THE WORLD – AND WHY THINGS ARE BETTER THAN YOU THINK’, by Hans Rosling, with Ola Rosling and Anna Rosling Rönnlund

I’ve just finished reading a book about which Bill Gates said,   “One of the most important books I’ve ever read – an indispensable guide to thinking clearly about the world”.   It’s certainly one of the most important books I have ever read.         This book,   ‘FACTFULNESS, TEN REASONS WE’RE WRONG ABOUT THE WORLD – AND WHY THINGS ARE BETTER THAN ...

‘A Very English Scandal’ (TV mini-series, 2018) [see my book review]

I recent read the brilliant ‘A Very English Scandal’ by John Preston (highly recommended!).     http://kobygould.com/a-very-english-scandal-by-john-preston/     Last night, I watched the Blueprint Pictures / BBC TV mini-series, all three episodes. Also highly recommended (though, be advised, adult language/theme, to say the least!).     If you haven’t read the book AND you haven’t watched the mini-series, my advice is that you ...

‘A VERY ENGLISH SCANDAL’, by JOHN PRESTON

I’ve just finished reading John Preston’s terrific book on the ‘Jeremy Thorpe affair'. I only managed to catch the first episode of the BBC’s production but it whetted my appetite and reawakened my interest in the scandal so I bought the book.     What a great read! I will watch the BBC’s production and I don’t want ...

‘HARVEY MILK: HIS LIVES AND DEATH’, by LILLIAN FADERMAN

Lillian Faderman's biography of Harvey Milk is terrific.   Harvey’s story is inspiring and, because he was no angel, because he didn’t live in an exalted stratosphere, ‘ordinary’ people like me, with character faults and failings, can relate to him, person to person. We can all learn from, and be inspired by, the life of Harvey Milk. ...

‘THE TIMES’: “ADOPTIONS FALL AS COUPLES CHOOSE IVF AND SURROGACY”. TRAGIC!

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Tragic.   'The Times':   ADOPTIONS FALL AS COUPLES CHOOSE IVF AND SURROGACY https://www.thetimes.co.uk/article/adoptions-fall-as-couples-choose-ivf-and-surrogacy-hmblckr9k?fbclid=IwAR3G5sWJM_q9sftc9JXUq4eoXzYMP5leST74OQZy4Z9EF3AVThtfZnGhn7Q     My view/opinion/attitude is, I assume, informed by the fact that I am adopted.     I don’t want to generalise nor judge. There are, clearly, many reasons why a couple might opt for surrogacy over adoption (IVF is a different matter, I can understand why some people try IVF before ...

LIVE IN THE PRESENT, ‘IN THE MOMENT’, EACH UNIQUE MOMENT, OR YOU’LL MISS EVERYTHING

Facebook, today, posted on my ‘timeline’ a photo which I posted on 11 November 2011, a photo, dating back to around 2005, of two of my children (in 2005, we ‘only’ had two.). FB posted the photo 'memories' for my eyes only but I 'shared' the photo with my Facebook 'friends'. In the photo, my ...

AGAINST A BACKDROP OF RACIST ATTACKS, THE LIGHT OF HUMANITY SHINES EVER BRIGHTER…

So much man-made, totally avoidable devastation, destruction and heartbreak, day in, day out, across the globe:     https://www.timesofisrael.com/christians-in-egypt-bury-their-dead-after-jihadist-attack/?fbclid=IwAR1d14Tvx0RNBH0O1Ddxjc6yzAqk-MTgwYV2tbaVkOiS7OKeQAI6t3v1U68     At the heart of it: ignorance.     The causes of the ignorance are many but it is ignorance which spurs arrogance, intolerance, hatred and jealousy which, in turn, kill "man's" inherent senses of humanity, love, kindness, empathy, forgiveness, gratitude.     Our only hope is ...

ANTISEMITISM IN THE UK: THE ALARM BELLS ARE GETTING LOUDER, THE WARNING SIGNS EVER CLEARER…

This sickens me and leaves me cold. I know that there are millions of non-Jewish people in the UK who will be appalled by this but it confirms what I and so many people have been saying for a long time, that the political right does not have a monopoly on hatred and antisemitism, that ...

RABBI DAVID LAU AND THE TREE OF LIFE SYNAGOGUE: SOME CLARITY

I have, over the last few days, been critical of Rabbi David Lau's words/response to the Tree of Life Synagogue massacre. I think this JTA article (link at the end of this blog) adds something substantial to the unfortunate "did he call it a Synagogue or not?" debate and whilst I still have a sense ...

HOW MANY MORE PEOPLE HAVE TO BE KILLED ON ISRAEL’S ROADS BEFORE ACTION IS TAKEN?!

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2 parents, 6 children, dead. Families destroyed. Unimaginable devastation.     https://www.timesofisrael.com/driver-arrested-for-suspected-manslaughter-after-family-of-8-killed/     How important was that phone call!!     The Government has got to get tough on road users and not just in the matter of drivers using mobile phones when driving. I'm talking about driving generally. It’s like ‘the wild west’ on Israel’s roads and everyone talks about it as if it’s ...

TREE OF LIFE SYNAGOGUE MASSACRE: THE BEST, THE ONLY, RESPONSE

Anderson Cooper’s tribute to the Tree of Life Synagogue’s victims.     Anderson’s calm, respectful style and tone is perfect. What a pro! Sincere, warm and authentic:     https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BY0Jdusd5-A     How poignant it is that the Synagogue/Temple/Shul is just 5 minutes from where Fred ‘Mister’ Rogers lived, a man of love, kindness, tolerance and empathy.     Hatred and division must never be allowed to ...

CHARLES AZNAVOUR, THANK YOU FOR THE MUSIC, YOUR HUMANITY AND THE SUPPORT. AU-REVOIR, IT’S NOT GOODBYE…

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Charles Aznavour, a genius of a musician, soulful songwriter (more than 1,000 songs - some he co-wrote), heavenly lyricist, magical singer, courageous activist and diplomatic, his life was one in which he made a big difference, a life in which he added quality to the lives of so many people.     He was a friend of Israel/Israelis/Jews, ...

SHANA TOVA UMETUKAH (GOOD AND SWEET YEAR) – MY GOOD WISHES TO EVERYONE

Wishing all my family, Jewish friends/followers a shana tova umetukah, a good and sweet year ahead (into next year, the following year and beyond), a year of good health, happy times, peace (for all people across the world), simchas (weddings, bar mitzvahs etc), nachas (events and occasions involving our families and friends which give us ...

A LIFE-CHANGING BOOK: ‘BEYOND HAPPINESS – HOW TO FIND LASTING MEANING AND JOY IN ALL THAT YOU HAVE’, BY SIR ANTHONY SELDON

Every now and then, we – certainly I – read a book which we feel is ‘life-changing’. However, I can’t think of a single book which has genuinely proved to be, for me, life-changing. I’ve read the books, felt, during the reading and when finished, that they were life-changing but then, over time, I’ve ‘forgotten’ ...

‘TAB HUNTER CONFIDENTIAL’ (2015)

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On 22 July 2018, I tweeted the following:   @TabHunterDoc(blog to follow): tears of sadness & joy in my eyes, throughout! A beaut. #humanbeing! From his #soulrose up #love, #courage, #perseverance, #tolerance, #forgiveness, #gratitude, #understanding, #empathy. Telling my wife about the doc afterwards, I burst into tears.     So here’s the blog:     After I watched this brilliant documentary on the ...

‘THE SONG OF BERNADETTE’ (1943)

I watched, last night, 'The Song of Bernadette' (1943), a movie masterpiece from Director Henry King, a stupendous, Oscar-winning, 'divine' performance by Jennifer Jones, one of the most staggering, most powerful acting performances I've ever seen, Alfred Newman's celestial, pathetical, powerful score (Oscar) is so effective, art direction/interior design, B&W (Oscar), cinematography, B&W (Oscar), both ...

THE TRAGIC, HEARTBREAKING, CHILLING DEMISE OF THE UK LABOUR PARTY: A WARNING…

Miles Webber, an old school pal of mine - and a LABOUR PARTY stalwart, member, worker, supporter for the last 28 years - this is his Labour Party membership card:     I have no doubt that he'll have cut that card with a mixture of emotions - extreme sadness - heartbreak - extreme anger and utter bewilderment.   He ...

DEPRESSION: OFTEN AN INVISIBLE AND FATAL MENTAL ILLNESS

Following the latest, heartbreaking, tragic case of terminal depression at Bristol University (Ben Murray passed away just a few weeks ago, in May), Sam Gyimah MP, speaking at the University of Buckingham’s Festival of Higher Education, reiterated his call for providers to see themselves as being in loco parentis for vulnerable young students who were living away ...

PEOPLE WHO DIE FROM WHAT TURNS OUT TO BE TERMINAL CLINICAL DEPRESSION, THAT IS WHAT THEY DIE FROM, THEY DO NOT DIE FROM/OF SUICIDE – THAT IS ‘JUST’ THE FINAL, FATAL SYMPTOM OF THE DEPRESSION – AND, FAMILY AND FRIENDS, DO NOT BLAME YOURSELVES!

A lady I know, her son suffered from terminal clinic depression - he passed away a few years ago. She still, to a degree, blames herself inasmuch as she can't stop wondering what she could have done to prevent him dying.   I responded with this post (in the interests of confidentiality, I have changed her, and ...

RECURRING DREAMS: WE MUST NOT IGNORE THE VOICES IN OUR HEARTS/SOULS/SUBCONSCIOUS

Recurring dreams, the same one/theme, just before I woke up this morning AND yesterday morning - can go on night after night after night, has been for years - setting, always University or school, always about exams, going to fail them or have failed them, my life crumbling…     I must be in REM dream sleep just ...

MY SENSE OF BEING BRITISH/ENGLISH IS ON THE WANE…

Tuesday evening/Wednesday this week was the first Yom Hazikaron (Memorial Day for Israel’s Fallen Soldiers and Victims of Terrorism) on which we have had a child in the army, the IDF (not that our eldest is a child any more!!). I feel my Aliyah (my emigration to Israel – 2012), my Israeli identity, more ...

MY ANTI-DEPRESSION MEDS DON’T LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME – THEY ‘MERELY’ ALLOW ME TO LIVE MY LIFE.

I am a 51 year old, life-long sufferer of clinical depression and anxiety – there’s a book in me, I should write it as I think it could be of value and assistance to other sufferers and their families/loved ones but that is not something for this blog.     I’ve had my ups and downs, some of ...

THE CRUCIALITY OF HAVING THE RIGHT MINDSET IN LIFE

3 years ago:     I don't think I realised how overweight I was back then!   Now: (I'm the one wearing the glasses!)     My mindset, 3 years ago, was so wrong, so damaging, so destructive.   I was passive, void of self-discipline. I had let myself go!   I wasn't controlling any aspects of my life, I wasn't even fire-fighting, I was simply being ...

A NEW EXPERIENCE TODAY – A SENSE OF EUPHORIA WHILST I WAS RUNNING…

Half marathon training, my plan was to run 16k/10 miles today, I did it but pushed on, to the half marathon distance, 21.1k (which was my max to date - before this morning), carried on...at 22k, a new experience, euphoria, a 'high', whilst running...23k...24k, I decided to make it 26k...I was running on autopilot, adrenalin...I ...

“TO LIFE – L’CHAIM”, by Dr. HENRY BRIGGS

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I’ve just read a life-enhancing/affirming, inspiring, highly pertinent and heartwarming autobiography of a man – a family man, a father, a husband, a grandfather, a great grandfather (I’m sure many other relation titles), a doctor, a healer, a carer, a multi-faceted man, a person with the soul, the essence, of great humanity, love and courage.     I ...

IRAN’S LEADERS ARE PARIAHS – EXCEPT, IT SEEMS, WHEN THEY’RE PLANNING TO WIPE OUT ISRAEL

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I’m sitting here, aghast, though I don’t know why - I read this article (click on link below this paragraph) and the comments that followed. I know that the tentacles of the fake news octopus are global in reach and that they squirt the poison of antisemitism liberally but I never cease to be shocked ...

TWO LEGENDS, PAUL ANKA AND NEIL SEDAKA

2 great songs, 2 songwriting geniuses, 2 great musicians, singers, performers, entertainers, 2 barnstorming recordings plus, what was for me, a real treat, a real joy, when I tripped over it yesterday…     First up, from the prolific legend Paul Anka who gave us, or gave Frank Sinatra, who then gave us, “My Way”, when he, Paul, ...

HOSTILITY TOWARDS THE ROYAL FAMILY IS GETTING PERSONAL AND NASTY

There's a lot of poisonous invective and personal vitriol being directed at Meghan Markle, Prince Harry and the forthcoming Royal Wedding as well as at the Royal Family generally at the moment, especially in relation to poverty, homelessness and other societal ills but the former 'grouping' is not related to the second.     The ‘attacks’ are getting ...

1) STOP BLAMING OTHER PEOPLE; 2) TAKE RESPONSIBILITY; 3) MOVE ON…

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What a nonsensical legal action!     http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2017/11/21/oxford-graduate-sues-university-1million-did-not-get-first-class/     This paragraph, in The Times (22 November 2017), settles the matter for me:     "After graduating from Oxford in 2000, Mr Siddiqui trained at one of the “magic circle” law firms, Clifford Chance, according to court filings, but was not kept on at the end of the programme. He worked for three other law firms and ...

FORBES: “MILLIONAIRE AUTHOR JOHN GRISHAM SAYS NOT ALL MEN WHO WATCH CHILD PORN ARE PEDOPHILES”

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This article (click below) on John Grisham’s view about people who watch child porn, that not all of them are pedophiles, is controversial, to say the least. That’s the headline of the article and I, initially, chose not to read it because I felt that the position/opinion was horrid and unjustifiable so why should I ...

MY PERSONAL EATING ‘DISORDER’ AND THE CONNECTION WITH MY OBSESSIVE PERSONALITY

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, or a highly compulsive personality, they are both extremely difficult to live with - difficult for the sufferer (especially if it comes with other conditions such as clinical depression and anxiety, as I know only too well!) and difficult for the family of the sufferer - everyone suffers!     The particular aspect to which ...

LADIES AND GENTS, YOU CAN’T HAVE YOUR PROFESSIONAL CAKE AND EAT IT

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I appreciate that I’ll take some stick for this but I’m bothered about an allegation that Kate Malby, writer/journalist and Tory supporter (I don’t know if she’s a member of the Conservative Party), has made this week against Damian Green, First Secretary of State/Deputy Prime Minster.     An article appeared in The Times yesterday, Wednesday 1 November ...

‘(HAVE I STAYED) TOO LONG AT THE FAIR?’ (Billy Barnes)

'(HAVE I STAYED) TOO LONG AT THE FAIR?' (Billy Barnes), 1962 or 3 (please let me know the year if you know it!), is an awesome, beautiful song, full of pathos, introduced to me by ‘Count Swing’ (@zootswings) whom I follow on Twitter. In fact, 'the Count' introduced me not just to this incredible song ...