I’ve been prescribed Adderall for ADHD. I’m 54. I take an antidepressant (Citalopram), anti-psychotic (Aripiprazole), together for clinical depression and OCD, and a beta blocker (Metoprolol) for panic attacks. I felt really flat this morning. Then I took my meds (taking Aripiprazole tonight).
Buzzing, a new type of buzz! Not, IMHO, related to having also taken my usual Citalopran (SSRI) & anti-psychotic (Aripiprazole) – not even the effects of this morning’s run. This is different! It could ould all be ‘in my head’, I might be imagining it, a la placebo, but we’ll see…
At this moment, I’m thinking that this is confirmation of what I’ve felt for a long time, that, at school, and as an adult, I was suffering, and have been, suffering from undiagnosed ADHD. I’m understanding the past more and more…
I want to get off all my meds, Citalopram, Metoprolol, Aripiprazole, Adderall, I want to get to where my supportive, courageous, compassionate, kind, empathetic friend, Britt Sevitt, is (her book will be out soon…) but, first, I need to know what’s wrong with me…
I don’t want to not take meds (sorry, double negative) and be left wondering if they’d have made a difference – I want to know what’s what and then I’ll decide how I want to deal with it all.
PS I’ll have a ‘Moxo’ ADHD assessment/test diagnosis test soon, i.e. take the test, then Ritalin, and then I’ll do another test to see if there’s a difference in my performances pre/post Ritalin, and that will guide my psychiatrist in his assessment, i.e. whether, in his opinion, I have ADHD or not.
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