Hi, thanks for coming to my one-man show…I think that’s what this is: CARRY ON KOBY is a stage and I’m exposing myself, so to speak. I do that, ‘expose myself’.
I have an inherent need to communicate and express myself – it is, I guess, a symptom of my deeply emotional character, this need to say it out loud.
I am a dichotomy, an extrovert but I’m also an introvert.
I’m a public person who, via Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and blogs, lives a Truman Show-esque life and yet, at the same time, I’m a private person.
I’m sociable and ‘out there’ but am content with my own company.
I give the impression of being happy, and, in many respects, I am happy, very happy, but the demons of depression are always trying to dilute, more precisely, destroy, the happiness.
I give off an air of extreme self-confidence and self-assuredness but the reality is that I do not have much self-confidence and I need to, and I do, work very hard to fight my demons.
….the show must go on and I go forward armed with some essential – VITAL – weaponry:
- the love and unquestioning support of my family
- a positive attitude (not easy when the black dog of depression is nipping at my heels)
- running
- the right nutrition
- sleep – a new discipline of mine, trying to get quantity and quality
- music
- medication!!
MY MEDS DON’T LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME – THEY ‘MERELY’ ALLOW ME TO LIVE MY LIFE.
Blogging is, for me, cathartic, but I also hope that what I am, what I feel and what I ‘write’ strikes a chord with people out there. During the worst times of my depression, whilst I was surrounded by love, I still felt alone. I can, and do, empathise with people who are suffering with depression, low self-esteem, from a lack of self-confidence, people who feel out of place. I hope that their ‘seeing’ me, someone who has gone through what they are going through, someone who has been rock bottom and come back to life, makes them feel less alone, that they can see that it is possible to move forward and that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I also believe that I will benefit hugely from reading about the experiences of others who have trodden similar paths.
A problem shared can often be a problem halved and I hope that we can share and halve lots of problems.
April 9, 2015
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April 12, 2015
Thnx! If you subscribe to the site, you’ll be notified every time I publish a new blog.
K
April 9, 2015
I really like your blog.. very nice colors & theme. Did you design this website yourself or did you hire someone to do it for
you? Plz answer back as I’m looking to construct my own blog and would like to know where u got
this from. kudos
April 12, 2015
Thnx.
Look at Theme Forest.
K
March 26, 2015
Hey! Just found you in what seems to be a more official capacity! Good for you. I look forward to more of the same. You’re a great person and I wish you all the best x
March 26, 2015
Thank you for those kind and encouraging words…got to take control, stay one step ahead of those little demon critters, positive, positive, positive….still a lot of ignorance out there on the subject, still a lot of people who think sufferers should just pull themselves together, that if, on paper, they have everything that other people want, they should be happy and stop moaning…would they tell an asthmatic to breathe properly or a diabetic to throw off that comma?!
See you online…hi to Dario and the kids!!
🙂
March 25, 2015
Take comfort in the fact that many comedians are mental depressives off the stage. The lesson? Perhaps don’t try too hard to be too funny. Life’s a joke in itself. I think this blog has heaps of possibilities and lots of good fun reading for us all. Keep at it Jamie. Well worth the effort.
March 25, 2015
Ah, thanks, Lloyd, I SO SO appreciate that comment…:) 🙂
March 23, 2015
Great to see one embracing their onLine persona and setting the benchmark for others- everyone will have their own.com in years to come, you just got ahead of the pack. I’m sure you’ll keep this as honest and as fresh as your reputation expects and be bold enough to attract constructive criticism as much as appreciation from your readers.
“I do not know what I may appear to the world, but to myself I seem to have been only like a boy playing on the sea-shore, and diverting myself in now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me.”
― Isaac Newton
March 23, 2015
Thnx, mucka! Appreciated! Love that Newton quotation (regardless of whether or not he really did say it….if Mark Twain said all the things that were attributed to him, I’d be amazed!). Staying clear of politics and religion…that’s for my Jerusalem Post blog! Erev Tov
March 23, 2015
just realised…’Newton’…you like Sir Isaac because he’s your namesake?