Hi, thanks for coming to my one-man show…I think that’s what this is: CARRY ON KOBY is a stage and I’m exposing myself, so to speak. I do that, ‘expose myself’.

I have an inherent need to communicate and express myself – it is, I guess, a symptom of my deeply emotional character, this need to say it out loud.

I am a dichotomy, an extrovert but I’m also an introvert.

I’m a public person who, via Facebook and blogs, lives a Truman Show-esque life and yet, at the same time, I’m a private person.

I’m sociable and ‘out there’ but am self-conscious and content with my own company.

I give the impression of being happy, and, in many respects, I am happy, very happy, but the demons of depression are always trying to dilute, more precisely, destroy, the happiness.

I give off an air of extreme self-confidence and self-assuredness but the reality is that I do not have much self-confidence and I need to, and I do, work very hard to fight my demons.

….the show must go on and I go forward armed with some essential – VITAL – weaponry:

  • the love and unquestioning support of my family
  • my determination
  • a strong sense of divinity and belief that I am not on my own
  • music
  • medication!!

Blogging is, for me, cathartic, but I also hope that what I am, what I feel and what I ‘write’ strikes a chord with people out there. During the worst times of my depression, whilst I was surrounded by love, I felt alone. I can, and do, empathise with people who are suffering with depression, low self-esteem, from a lack of self-confidence, people who feel out of place. I hope that their seeing that someone else has gone through what they are going through makes them feel less alone, that they can see that it is possible to move forward and that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I also believe that I will benefit hugely from reading about the experiences of others who have trodden similar paths.

A problem shared can often be a problem halved and I hope that we can share and halve lots of problems.

344 Comments
  • Koby Gould
    May 26, 2015

    Thank you!

  • Koby Gould
    May 26, 2015

    Thanks!

  • Koby Gould
    May 25, 2015

    Technologies??

  • Koby Gould
    May 25, 2015

    Terrific! Thnx!

  • Koby Gould
    May 25, 2015

    Thanks!

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